Off day

Today is Friday, I couldn't believe that my manager will take a off day! For me maybe is a good news but feel so boring in da house! If out also need wait until night! Huh, what can I do and where could I can going in this few hour?

I decided going saloon and dye my hair, is stupid ugly in the top cuz black color was grown up and my hair was fucking long even last two week just cut it almost 3cm!.

Monday will leaving here and move to another place to work! Probably should learn how to independent. Work most important then dating or travel! But I guess I can maintain business in traveller! I hope I can met you on tomorrow, but I think you wouldn't come and fetch me and met me! Maybe you're treat me as a stranger. But it's ok, if you on my planning will going dessert with you either having a dinner! If not on just find some friends and tea! That's all, I'm not so confidence in my date on you! Everything just take it easy. I will miss you in my heart.

Tired mode

0346pm right now, today is the most earlier my manager let us back home. Feel so tired because last night was back in da lately around 2something! Try to get a due rest on now! Cuz later wil hang out with them. Maybe movie or sing k! I should enjoy until this few day!

Working, manager said I was approve, my partnership wad very take care and teaching me a lot of skills! I need more spirit to improve. I'm tired and getting a sleepy mode in da whole day! So I should take a bath and rest well.

Schedule in this week.

Er, this week is my last week staying at kl, next week gonna departure kl and starting to my first trip! But I not hope that will going Penang because he will flight to china on this Saturday night! If go Penang will no people find me hang out happy hour. Sigh !

This week they confirm going sepang gold coast, huh, how long that I was expecting going gold coast enjoy a wonderful beach and spa! Ms c was already agree will booking a massage and spa together with me! Haha, hope Jessie going with us too.

Tonight they'll coming find me walk pm then movie at mid valley@ the big mama! Huh, couldn't waiting the moment to catch the time watch this movie as possible! Hear that funny and ridiculous inside the drama show! I feel so tired but I wanna entertainment to relax my mind! And him, will coming back on tomorrow night, that's mean Friday night I can met with him, I damn miss him and try to get a hug from him! XD ....

I'll try to update my blog in daily! Cuz I know I was always abandoning my blog, photo couldn't update by I phone, but Monday I'll try borrow johnny laptop to upload those photo I captured! Just stay tuned@

工作得开心。

今天真的很累，很有充实的感觉！

每天返工，然后等收工，感觉真的很美好！自从在这间公司工作后，这几天都收到很多朋友的支持与鼓励，真的感到很满足！虽然有点辛苦但是却不会说要放弃！就是工作得很开心很开心。他们也很照顾我！任何问题都不会说不明白不开心！

昨晚因为和你吵架把今天的心情带到有点不是很开心。也许就是想太多的关系！但是从昨晚起，你delete了我！不是什么大不了。我们的关系与生活就在此挂上句号！以后你有你的生活而我就会奋斗在我的工作上！我真的接受不到一个比我没有奋斗心没有目标的男朋友！没有本事却很喜欢把自己装得有，很废材没有什么分别！

Dissapoint / dissatisfied

No point want to update anything!
Just help myself counting down, left 3day, I just can enjoy till inside this three day! I'll leave here soon! Damn. Feel like time past so fast, we didn't met almost two more week! You look busy and quite enjoy life after without me, I guess and I thought that will been fine for you! All the while, doesn't the big deal for you, cuz you really didn't get any hurt and unhappy! You'll happy always together with your friend! Lol, look am so emotion in this love relation! After happy sure get suffer ! Once, twice, till don't know how many time I'm getting hurt! I'm really hate you, you really is a play boy, I'm confused about you, I not understand what you want? Sometimes feel like you just playing me hurting me treat me as a toys! But everything was enough! Life is need us face different trouble different dilemma, different steps different experience!I was fall down in the jungle, and I hope I can be strong bravely climb up! Hope, expect, all need depends on myself..

I need friends cheer me up! I'll be fine.

逃避是一份罪

今天真的很累，我以为真的能放下你，可以切底的忘记你。你对我的伤害真的很大！再一次有那份冲动想去信息你问你，我们还能在一起吗？但是到最后还是没有这样做，因为我知道，我在你心里已经没有价值已经没有地位了！就是怎样，你还会觉得我很烦！
真的搞不清楚自己想怎样！很想念你抱着我紧紧的那刻，自己就是一直告诉自己，真的没有可能再会得到你的拥抱了，你不会理会我不会再问候我过问我的一切！我很想把心里的泪发泄出来，但是我做不到。星期五，如果面试成功，我第一个很想和你分享也很想你帮我一起庆祝然后一直希望得到你默默地支持给我信心与鼓励！一切我都只在安慰自己让自己心里好过！我就是放不下你不能忘记你！你的过错，就是因为你喜欢逃避问题！你就是只会敷衍我让我更难受！酒真的只能麻醉我一时，出去只能让我短暂忘记你，就算怎样的一个short trip也好回到家也是不断地思念！
我帮自己挣扎了很久，我何时才能释放自己让自己真的开心？

我们怎么了，感觉我对你的距离越来越远了。
和你见面的时间就是越来越少，我每一天都等着你打电话给我，但是你却忙着你的工作！听见你说你要找回你的前女友，我却有种不是很开心的感觉，我却不明白为什么我还一直叫你去！时间上我们真的来得很迟，你要的其实我都能给到，只是我不想伤害你！因为我觉得我们现在的关系都保持很好！我就是爱挑气你，我就是爱作弄你，我就是喜欢你逗我笑，看见你的表情我就是很开心很想继续去作弄你！在外人的眼里我们就是很恩爱很像在一起。你说你细心的一脸不会透露在我身上，但是你却不知道你已经做了。很多人，包括家人都问我，为什么不尝试去接受你！很多人都不会明白。我不是你想象中的那么完美！我还有很多的缺点不是你一瞬见就能接受得到。我怕你对我好的时候我却不会去珍惜！我真的没有这份勇气去接受！
就像那晚只有我们俩一起去看戏，你的背影，让我有种感觉很有那份冲动很想跑过去抱着你，很想说，我也喜欢你！到最后就是没有！还记得那晚其实我们就不想回家，还想陪着对方！你说你肚子饿，我却没有拒绝你却很想陪你吃宵夜！吃完后，你说你还想陪我！我却偏偏不让，因为我知道你一早就要工作所以就逼你回家！早上，你却打电话叫我起身，你找个借口跟我聊天。其实我们都在想念着对方！只是你不承认。
在朋友的分析下，其实我们就是互相对对方有感觉，只是我们没有承认，因为在我的口中就一直提着你的名字与事务！我们太多的阻碍了！我对你，我根本就不知道需要些什么！我只想我们的关系能一直保持良好，友情只上！我真的没有那份勇气去接受，毕竟在我的心里一直还有他的存在！时间，它真的能帮到我。

I'm back

I'm coming home coming home, tell the world I'm coming home..
Yeah, peace, I was arrived kl in da earlier, I guess the stupid was drove as fast as possible! I was damn tired on last night cuz was not enough sleep when I stayed in Penang! When arrived kl, by the road, first we was facing traffic jam! And Xiang fetched his friend through pwtc sent some stuff to his maid, and Christine and I'm was appeared to Sentul met up ah yap and tea! I'm fucking tired until midnight! Around 1 something, home sweet home and get the chance sleep early. Was waken up in the earlier morning, I just slept few an hour then need leaved to my bed! Sigh..

I'm waiting him, he didnt reply my message, maybe he couldn't to met me. I was unhappy and moody in this moment! I miss him so much, but he was not accept and know it!( I won't cry, cuz I understand that you dislike I cry) I must be stronger cuz I need face to process when growing up. I'm till can't forget you in my heart, I'm till so love you!

思念

就算我多么地想念他，他也当着是一份垃圾。就算我多么地想我们能像是以前那样开心地在一起，他也不会回心转意！实际上，他的心也没有了我！就算我怎样后悔自己的过错也好，他也没有那份心去细听和原谅我了！我每晚只能把自己弄得累才能入睡！我的泪，只能默默地在心里狂流！你不会明白，你不会知道。就连我的一点一滴，你也没有可能像是以前那样留心地去读了！我们，已经没有将来没有对方的存在了！我不会忘记我们曾开心过的日子，我不会埋怨，我的痛，需要时间去治疗。一切都变成了回忆，再也没有重新的机会。我的任性我的刁蛮，后悔也没有用了。