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Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Exhausted

Felt very tiring even so free in the whole day.
I just came back from field, jogging.
Tommorow no need working, so free staying at home.
Somemore just now receive a call from my friend,
he called me go out drink with him, i was reject!
Hehe, coz i so tired for outing. Tommorow is the last day end of march.
Time so fast, work at canon almost one month, and important is,
baskin robbins. So i'll go there around.
Night, yam cha with my buddies!

I need find education,i haven get any survey!
Anything just plan as soon.
I so tired, good night!

Monday, March 29, 2010

♥ 真正爱你的女生会做这些哦

1 不喜欢你吸烟,因为对身体不好;但偶尔也会让你吸,因为她知道你戒不掉,不想让你的心情不好­

2总是骂你傻,但自己做的事情比你还要傻­

3喜欢你强行拉着她的手并且喜欢与你十指相扣­

4你冷的时候她会握着你的手(所以她冷的时候,请你轻轻的抱紧她)­

5遇到困难的时候想要抱紧你,但遇到大困难的时候想要保护你。­

6对你很宽容,总是对你笑。(虽然说爱情是自私的,但是,但你遇到一个可以包容你的女孩时,那就请你好好珍惜她)­

7喜欢和你静静的待在一起,没有任何人的打扰。­

8你跟朋友在一起时,她默默地坐在一旁不出声(除非是你们都认识的朋友)­

9会生你的气,但是只要你好好哄哄她,就一切OK。

10她很有原则,但是为了你也会破坏原则。­

11总是说你骗她,其实心里不介意,偶尔给你起个骗子的外号。­

12和你一起吃东西的时候会开心。­

13在你家人面前很有礼貌,在你面前会很凶! ­

14你问她想不想你时她会说不想,其实恰恰相反。­

15喜欢看着你,不管是你睡觉的时候还是吃东西的时候,她想捕捉到你生活中的每个镜头!­

16你遇到了不公平的待遇,比你先叫出声来­

17会用心改掉你不喜欢的毛病。。。­

18对自己总是大大咧咧的,但是对你总想做到无微不至。。。­

19喜欢和你撒娇吵嘴,因为她会喜欢你让着她的感觉。。。­

20只会对你有些害羞。。。­

21总是胡思乱想,只因为她想和你有以后。。.

what i'm needed is very easy, just a sweet love is enough and satisficed! I treat you as good and always pardon with each other! That's my philosophy for my target! But for me right now, i thought single life is better. ain't not depend guy treat me everything! I till have buddies and family! Just cheer my life.

烦恼

今天终于都去apply college了!
浪费了钱去报名,现在还在犹豫着!
如果要读,我就要去到oustation了!
Pahang就读1年4个月,然后transfer回来kl拿course.
如果不要就选Penang, JB, Perak等,一共四年!
我还没做决定,我只想去Penang。毕竟那边环境适合我!!
因为有得shopping, clubbing,最重要就是有海滩有娱乐!

刚才妈打了给大哥,我把他关了!
我不知道要怎样开口,明天去KDU survey下!
我不想搬出去,而且还那么的远水!烦。

钱,不是问题!时间不是问题!
问题是在于自己要怎样去选择!!怎么办?
哥叫我去Jb,因为他在那边!
但是我妈不是很放心!!加上表姐很反对!!

今天下午闷闷不乐的,在问自己很多次!
读书我一定是要读,搬出去也是事实!因为方便!
但是去到那么远,假期只能回来几天!
离乡背井,什么都要靠自己!
虽然这是我学习独立的好机会,
加上趁自己单身要做什么就赶快做决定!
我最放不下最不舍得就是家里和朋友!烦。

我很想发泄,很想出去跑步,但是刚吃饱!累。
旅行,几时才能旅行?我的生活越来越闷了!!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

第一次的忙! 疲倦

今天工作时间是我工作那么以来第一天那么的快过!
我今天没有break到,随便去买东西吃了又开工了!
我用了全天的时间只完成3本的album!下星期再继续!
今天没有serve过customer,只是对着电脑做设计,
我的眼睛蛮累得!肩膀还很酸,明天休息,一共休息三天!
我现在才知道原来他不是supervisor,是manager!
难怪他那么的自由。他今天终于都逗我开玩笑了!废到!!

明天的约会应该会比较忙!星期三应该和他出去!
我很久没有见他了!是时候聚在一起了!

昨晚睡得很甜,因为我很累!
两点钟,被电话吵醒了!
Mr k 问我在哪里!我以为他去clubbing然后要找我喝茶!
他又以为我下clubbing要去载我然后去喝茶!
搞笑,最后没有出,因为我很懒惰爬起来!>< 今早被哥吵醒叫我上班! 今天提早到,去金河打包然后回到公司on fb. Mr K 竟然说要去ikea!妈的,我sms了他, 他以为我没有工作叫我陪他去,我说我在工作。 他说请假一天然后晚上他请吃饭!aduii. (其实上星期是我叫他陪我去ikea的,怎知道,死仔包自己去左!顶)

今天有保镖陪我一起回家,如果没他,
我又要走回那条路! 我们聊了很多,
但是又被他骂!!回到家竟然没有人在,
我还以为妈有煮饭,怎么知道是没有的!现在我的肚子很饿!
只怪刚才为什么他叫我出,我就是懒惰去!!活该><

我很讨厌自己,我现在才知道,原来单身了,才发觉自己一直以来都是在单身!
我很假,很伪装。为什么明明就没有幸福过开心过,
但是却要扮到很幸福很开心的样子!我对不起的是自己,
因为我要脸我爱面子,我不想输给朋友们!
现在的我轻松了很多,因为我不需要再对任何人讲骗话,尤其是家人!!

一个懂得珍惜你的人不管什么关系也好也会关心你,疼你,关怀你!
这种感觉我却在很多人身上得到,我的朋友,我的知己,我的家人!
我不想再辜负任何一个对我好的人!我终于体会到被人玩的感觉!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

今天蛮累得,因为前两天不是睡得很多!
肩膀酸酸的,脚很疼,因为天天走来走去!
我不再是铁人了,身体慢慢老化下来!哈

今天,可以说是很充实的一天,
早上上班竟然迟到,迟了20分钟!
一去到气喘喘的,最衰就是自己!我竟然忘了今天是星期六!
supervisor问我,点解迟到啊?
呵呵,吾好意思啊,塞车啊!
我用了break time来顶替,对我的新supervisor没有怎样。
只是觉得他很怪,很strict!就连上网也偷偷的!闷。
今天迟放工搞到他们没有等我一起回!

今天同事们说我很weird,我问为什么!
他们说我今天一直在笑问我有什么好消息!
其实今天我真的脸面带笑容!心里的那种甜真的很开心!
因为我单身了!我的自由我的朋友回来了!
我的appoinment开始忙了!是件好事!
加上今天收到很多msg和来电问候我怎样了?千万不要想不开!
aduii,多少岁了?失恋真的玩不起吗?怎样都好,谢谢你们的关心!
明天很多东西要做,我要完成八本photo album,忙!
今天终于都开单了,爽到!
遇到canon做工的melvin,他拿了我的电话号码!哈哈,奇怪!
今天被两位男士请喝茶!爽到。工作总算轻松!

五月份,他们在plan着去redang。我要去penang了!
不知道他们的时间会不会撞在一起!
两个我都很想去啊!!我要旅行我要去玩,是时候要去轻松下!!
钱不是问题,因为有人将会还钱给我!
买了相机还可以买电话!钱方面都很足够!!不用担心。

今天差一点对他心软了,如果你们问我有没有想起他,
我的答案,有!毕竟大家在一起也有2个月多!
如果你们问我还爱他吗,对不起!开始是喜欢!
如果你们问我,还想和他复合吗?对不起,没有可能的事!
我的心是虽然很疼,但是不要为了让自己短暂舒服,
就再次去接受他哄回他!长期的悲,我不想再要了!
这样的人能一再三,三再七的这样对待你!简直就不是好男人!
我说过不喜欢被人丢下的感觉!我更不喜欢被人盖电话!
在那条人潮很多的街上,我哭了!被他们望着的感觉是怎样?
走到那冷清清的街上,自己站在那边哭!!那种感觉又是怎样!
我很讨厌半夜的感觉,独自在那条街,我很怕!但是我每天必须经过!
望着那条街,走着时,告诉自己,这里就是一条让你站起来的路!

我很喜欢昨天,因为让我对他再次的死心和绝望!
我给你们骂,我哭得很痛!!我答应你们我不会再哭了!
26/3 这一天让我学习到什么叫残忍什么叫自私!
这一天,我学习到,没有男朋友是不会死的,起码我有的是朋友!!

我还是觉得单身好,因为我要怎样就怎样,去哪里就哪里!
起码不用再看别人的脸色!而且更加不会被人离弃地丢下我一个人!

今天遇到妈的朋友,她载我回家的时候,
她说找一个boy friend来照顾你载你去上班下班!
我的心很痛的说,对不起,我不需要男朋友去照顾我!
加上我遇到鬼不敢在冒险了!
她静静的笑着对着我!!

Friday, March 26, 2010

失恋不是怎么大不了

2。27分,我刚到家刚冲凉休息!(对不起哥,gin, doris)

我单身了,我不想再为一个‘女人’去伤心!
只怪自己爱错了,爱到一个相似女人一般的男生!
第一次,真的第一次!在你身上我已经用了很多钱花了很多时间!
你们整天都问我,出粮那些钱去了哪里,
为什么做工没有钱用!其实养一个人真的很辛苦!
知道他没钱样样都自己出!看戏吃东西都是自己给!
这些真的很无所谓,我累了!也没有钱再供应了!

今天不知道为什么,觉得他很sohai,
他说的东西不知道为什么,我在心里真的有犹豫!
怎么了?是因为听太多,听到闷了!
做人其实不要那么聪明,给面子他,让他有位子下台就好了!
男人始终都是爱面子!他说什么,点点头,应酬几句就好了!
他很喜欢批评人家的缺点,其实,在批评别人时,为什么不批评下自己!

他的脾气和我的脾气!其实大家都一样,
就是撞在一起时,双方都不会去认错!
但是每次还是我去认错!我受够了!因为我是女生!
分手,你说了两次,我说了两次!
这次是你说的!我无所谓。因为没有分谁早说就赢谁迟说就输!
机会给了你三次,我受够了!对不起,没有第四次了!
我不想再爱一个我不值得去爱得人!

我不喜欢你矮过我,我不喜欢你钩着我的手走街,因为像个女人一样!!我不喜欢你就是一身‘烂’的打扮,拖鞋也能出街。我很讨厌你的嘴巴,因为就是爱批评人家!
我不喜欢你动不动就发脾气,我不喜欢你在我最需要你的时候你却去睡觉去clubbing。我很讨厌每次吵架你都只会说是我的错,最后还是我去哄回你!!我很讨厌那种没有交代的感觉!!你说我没有想过你的感受,那你呢?你有正正的去了解我需要的是什么吗?

我要的东西很简单,疼我,得空被人哄下,吃东西被人喂下,得空给中爱的,温馨的感觉对方,放工有人载我下班陪我去吃东西!!你呢?你有吗?在你的心里,朋友还比我重要!你就连我也养不起!还没和你在一起的时候我已经告诉你我是一个很会花钱的人,你说你没问题!但是你却当我在说废话!!刚才你怎样对待我你自己心知透明,我再次跟你说,我没有错!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Pavilion @ working

Finally, i was arrived here around my work time, 11am.
Took bus and walked to the corner section, more infront is the pavilion building,
i was memories 2008, it's memorable many matter, all include my fun and my friends!
2010. i enter here again (i means work at here).
The feel as some hesitated. did i mature on this both year?
The feel very strong, and the smell, till the same!
The same level, but section and shop is different!
Till the same, seldom customer and people will walk in, just window shopping!

I so boring, my supervisor was not at here, all my colleague very facetious very nice!
They allow me online, haha!
At here very freedom somemore got bill for me.
(i'll not free on this few day, coz many order i gonna done it.)
Damn appreciate.
i miss my dear! but he working not free to accompany ,chit-chat with me.sigh!!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

fuck

刚才长篇大论的那篇文章竟然没有了!怎么了?
真的那么倒霉吗?
我很懒惰很累在写了!

下星期才update我的blog!
明天开始就会去地狱那边上班!
明天会开始新的surrounding新的人物!
很多东西又要重新去适应!讨厌。
虽然我喜欢pavilion,但是也不用派到我去那边的!
我的顾客我的同事在mid valley那边就这样告别了!有点心痛!
明天的东西明天再算!

现在的我很累了!今天陪了三位公子出去!
去了snooker再去mid valley!
现在宝贝睡觉了,我答应他会早睡!
11.42pm,还很早哦?不算迟!哈哈

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

最近

My mum just came back from cameron highlands, yesterday i'm the last knew that! sigh. But she very smart, bought strawberry(eating,sweet) and sweet corn for me! DAI SEK, i'm your only one daughter! Next month will get my target, canon ixus for my mum present, normally, the camera also will i using always! haha!!

Sunday night, after work, watched movie with my dear at mid valley! Afternoon he was suggest go his home and he'll cook ''pan mee'' for my supper, i was agree that! When my lunch time, i take my time go upstairs bought ticket coz i knew my dear expected movie with me! Long dragon over the cinema section, i was taken half an hour + get the ticket, ''pandora box''. Not so nice for us, not realy so fun and facetious! We just enjoyable the couple seat~xD. Midnight, on the way, we was argue! Bad day.

Monday, woke up in the early. Afternoon arrived home rush clean my room and living room, coz so messy especially is my room, damn many dust and dirty. Night, akimy was called me and she said she coming cheras find me tea, good, we went to midah old town chui shui tan cha gossiped those people and we were agree what we decided on last night! Midnight, was meet my dear and he came old town fetch me back home. (we was argue again! i dislike you always hottemprered infront of me even just a small matter!)

Tuesday, very normaly day, just stayin' at home sleep,eat, online! I was tired because i just sleep a few hour, not much rest! Later take a bath and movie! I just back from field, jogging 4round non-stop, so tiring!

Picture's, sorry for din't any upload on fb and blogger, because my usb was disable again. I think i need change my memory card asap.

College, huh, troublesome. My dad was nagging me and forcess me take the cources- account! But i more prefer marketing or businness! sigh~ i haven get any apply and infromation.DIU~

May-planing my penang trip! i need relax and saving my funds, i thought RM 500is enough to me and used!!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

UPDATE TONIGHT,
PUSHING OUT ALL THE UNHAPPY MATTER!
I HATE MY LIFE~

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Maison night

昨晚下了maison,阿Roy邀请了我很多次去庆祝他的生日!
昨晚本来不是很想去,但是最后还是去了!
去到那边十二点多!他从kepong下来cheras载我!去到那边,站在外面有种很不舒服的感觉,
因为周围很多‘海鲜集团’在站着!进到去,竟然没有table!站在lounge bar那边发呆!
最后,找到位子了,还是很偏僻的那个!算!看见那些小妹妹在逗男孩子!回想起以前的我!
喝喝下被阿roy邀请下去跳舞!音乐不是很美,还是quattro的好听!周围都很拥挤,shake shake下,
有位小妹妹看着我对着我笑,我问她多少岁,她答我15岁!我也不差,因为我告诉她我16岁!哈哈!Maison,我想没有下次了!真的有够杂有够乱!还是假期小妹妹小弟弟出来玩的时期?乱水。。

Monday, March 15, 2010

无言的一个伤悲

昨晚,发生了很多事情
我自己真的意想不到!
那种感觉很强!我的心好悲好疼!
眼泪不知不觉得流了!当时的我究竟发生什么事?
我真的不知道,我只知道自己的心跟着环境去走,
那种清苦,不是一般人能感受得到!

我告诉宝贝我哭了,他傻了!
他打了很多次电话给我,但是我没有接!
(我很想念他!我们已经几天没见了!)

昨晚回到家已经是两点多了!
最近和mummy很好谈,我迟回她没有骂我,
因为我一进门就马上进房间和她交代我去哪里!
同时,昨晚和爸爸谈了很多,他问我读书的东西!
我,真的要继续我的路,等大哥回来帮我安排一切!
因为我只听哥的吩咐,而爸只会听从哥的意思!

昨晚去leisure mall old town喝茶,
遇到很多朋友!(全是女生)!她们竟然还记得我,
她们说我变了,变得听话了!谢谢!
其实我也觉得自己变了,变得懂事了!
没有抱着骄傲的样子是不是特别令人喜欢?
面带着笑容是不是真的很令人很喜欢?

Tarc , KDU, Taylor, Sunway, The one, Ucsi, Segi, Victoria? Which better?
course= business administration, financial accounting, management infromation systems, creative art & designer (graphic or interior), which i need?

My family suggestion-TARC college, accounting ( banking & finance)
my opinion- Taylor or segi, business administration!

The conclusion, waiting my brother come back and give me suggestion and information!
I need consider and make sure the decision is probably worth for me on future, promise that will study hard even the course is hardship to learn.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Quattro night

昨晚下了quattro!Last minutes得约会!
我没有去到sanctuary,和几位公子哥儿下了老地方!
原本他们是说去唱k的,他们知道我不开心所以换取下club!
原本是plan好去poppy的,因为full table所以去了quattro!
其实哪里也一样,开心就好!
昨晚去到那边大概一点多,想起有点陷,
check ic,第一次下club被check ic。
昨晚真的很严,怎样都进不到!搞到全部在外陪我然后一直在那边绞尽脑汁带我进!
最后,很幸运的!sharry show她的ic给大老板看,然后我躲在后面瞒天过海,
盖了印,就这样,大家松了口气!

昨晚没有化妆,很casual的就出门了!



就这样,昨晚不是玩的很癫!但是还是轻松了!原因是,位子太小加上很多人,没有位子给我跳!气死!><四点多到家睡觉!哈哈,睡了四个小时起身去做工!今天做工时在那边钓鱼!就这样,很难挨得一天,我终于挨过了!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

对不起!

今晚两场约会我都放飞机了!
第一场,akimy小姐的约会!sanctuary,我想去,但是没有人载我回!加上工作很累了!对不起!
第二场,去唱k,我很累很没有心情!如果下maison我就要!因为某些原因我很想发泄出来!

现在的我很无奈,早上和爸吵架,因为学业的问题!下午得心情开始慢慢回复了!刚才,被某些人气一气!很吊,比早上更死!!我很讨厌这种感觉!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Good

12.00am right now, a night ghost online-ing, facebooking, litsening music! It's a damn bored night. A pig was sleeping, haiz, he is always ignore me when i need his accompany, normaly, basically, finally, eventually..+ i'd accept his habits, i understand he is quite tiring for his job! haiz....not as like me, relax until expect direct change job! One word can mention my work time 'free' but boring! somemore too little stress for me on right now, worked four day haven get any sales, die! I'm so awake, i'm fall asleep! Any problem to me? I hate my life on recent, quite boring quite idiot quite failure quite bullshit! What i need? i don't know! M-o-n-e-y- make me so trouble....

Yup, talk as long haven go in my topic, my spm result! Quite nice, not the well for me! No A No C, just leave some ''babbii'' letter for me, B,D,E! I haven get the ''brave'' heart face to my family, especially is my eldest bro! Tue he'll coming back, haiz. History, realy a miracle, i get it pass, half an hour done it also will get pass!! okay,stop the chapter about my result, damn dissapointed for myself!

Today should be a good night, today is saturday! Many stress on coming, i need face my boring work. Fortunately, i was accepted Akimy call, and she invited me enter to her new bf(leng zai dou) birthday party at sanctuary! Should be a goond news or bad news? I means night-out-day. Sunday i need work but i'll, comfirm, won't reject this date! haha.Because i need relax. Just drunk and keep silent enough, do you know what i'm meaning?

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

情歌加伤悲的心情

今晚的心情很down!听着伤悲的歌曲!眼泪没有流,因为不想哭!

一个爱你的男人,竟然叫你放弃他!
究竟是怎么一会事?
我的心很痛很酸!
刚才的吵架,刚才的胡闹究竟是怎么回事?

独立这两个字,几时需要用到几时该放在一边?
我很糊涂!是不是学会了独立,男朋友就会觉得你长大觉得你不需要依赖他了?
当你学会了,是不是不再需要依靠男朋友的照顾和关心?
我很烦恼,我很犯奸,我很想独立但是得回来的东西不是我想要的!

学会了又怎样,得回来的东西真的很少,但却给自己的收获很多。
但是往往的,慢慢的我却知道,有了男朋友,我学会独立了长大了有怎样,我得不到他的关心!

一开始是不是已经错了,你看见的我,和我心里的自己却不是一样!
是不是我独立了,你就不会好好的去关心我,是不是我需要你的时候你觉得我长大了会照顾自己你却随便的应酬我?是不是我说要这样你就不问不听的去敷衍我?是不是我多余,是不是我的问题?在我很需要你的时候你在哪里?在我很需要你的关心,你怎么了?敷衍一俩句就没了吗?

就是两个字‘独立’,我们吵了很多次!对不起~

我的心很多问号?我爱你,但你给我什么?

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Belated

3a.m in the morning right now, today will be what day and what should i do it?
''Monday'', a new starting week for me! sigh!
(Pig is sleeping, hope he'll get sweet dream coz he need work later!zZz)

I just finish talk with him, my bro. Probably 3hour we chattin' at the phone! The bill not i'm pay, just take the time and ''saliva'' chui shui with him! He was told me many thing, important is, what i felt sadness on recent, i was told him!He was consult and teach me! Thank's, bro! you'll be my good litsener! peace...''april'' waiting you lols.....


What's was my life on going? working? strolling?
Will building up my life ,my schedule?
How was my arrangenment and future?
Actually i'm confuse about this problem and already lost the way that i needed!
How will it will been as soon! I'm very daffy. agree?

I'm so proud to myself, sometimes. Eventually, i lost myself when i'm alone!
How did i mention the feeling,ermzz...... i just can simply ans it, ''girl need always be independent!''
I was learning from them, all my friends, ages above 20++! They're always guidance and willing teach me everything even i'm so ''soften'', appreciate them@
Indeed, i was realise! It not easy to learn it. But i've to step-by-step and remind myself always! I couldn't depend ''family''. Did i mature? or i'm till the childish?

Money, for me i thought that is a big problem! I need very save and extra save to cover my life! I need an EOS camera, 2.5k! Three month i need get it, but.......i must working hard!This is the first item for me, it expected since i work at canon! DIu lols....everyday face many camera, heart very itch ahh!

My sweet day's with him, no comment no reveal anything between us. I just can say with him, what i need i'm already told you, i need your ''care''! Please introspection yourself and i don't want you regret when i'm decide the decision! I love you. You should understand what i'm talkin'!

Finish my topic, my grumbling, my stories! Thanks for viewing my bored topic@ Good night~

Thursday, March 4, 2010

工作

明天就要开始我的工作了!
一个星期只做四天,星期四到星期日!
休息三天!哎。
年轻该要好好存钱了!
明天家里就会冷清清的!
只剩我和哥哥!

星期六他们好像有节目,地点人物我一概不清楚!
不是唱k就是喝茶吹水!去到才算!!

有了男朋友,生活开始很检点,
有了男朋友,一切都零开始!
有了男朋友,我的朋友全死去哪里呢?
有了男朋友,我开始要学习很多东西!
有了男朋友,我的烦恼更大更多!
有了男朋友,我的生活节目也少了很多!
我爱他,另我改变了很多!
就这样!我只想和爱人平凡的,简单的去过生活!